Stylist and Domaine Editor-at-Large Estee Stanley on who made her heart skip a beat.

Stanley, pregnant with her son, Teddy; above and proceeding photographs courtesy of Estee Stanley

My son, Teddy, is the cutest person I’ve ever met, but I feel like nobody tells the real truth about pregnancy.

It’s pretty intense having a person grow inside of you.

The first time I was pregnant, I was 38. I can’t explain what happened to me, other than that I turned into a completely different human being.

I lived at McDonald’s, Jack In The Box, and Fat Burger, and ate more Big Stick popsicles than a person should ever consume.

Stanley on a Jack In The Box run

My feet turned into cinder blocks — they wouldn’t move at all — and my mouth tasted like metal the entire time.

I broke three of my teeth chewing ice all day long;

[Initially], I tried having a natural childbirth at home. That lasted 13 hours, and the last five felt like there was no escape. I was in so much pain, thinking,

‘How am I going to push something out?’

A family selfie, from left: Teddy, Stanley, and her daughter, Flora

When you train for childbirth, you’re told that the woman has to be talked off the ledge, that she’ll try to go to the hospital. I begged my husband to take me, and he refused, so my friend brought me.

My hippy-dippy doctor put on some Radiohead, lit candles, gave me an epidural, and told me to push.

Fifteen minutes later, an arm came out, and then I literally pulled out my son. My husband screamed like a girl.

It was the most incredible experience of my life.

— as told to The Thick

Did you see? Friends Molly Sims & Emese Gormley talk modeling, motherhood, and managing it all, designer Melissa Akkaway takes The Thick Questionnaire (with help from her son).

Stanley’s children, Teddy and Flora, at a Justin Timberlake concert